Rest In Peace - Eric Miron - Novermber 04, 2005

No. 17

Date: December 26, 2005 - 10:20 am

Name: KAthy

Eric, Christmas has come and gone and through it all, even though we had the people that mean the most to us,we were missing one.Each one of us thought about you at least a hundred times,wishing we would see you walk through the door.There is such a huge feeling of loss in our lives that will always be there. I hope you know how much you meant to so many people and how much you have influenced others. You were one of a kind E and my mom saw that right from the beginning of knowing you.And then loving you!!!!!!You are missed and always in my thoughts, my heart and my prayers.

No. 16

Date: December 24, 2005 - 11:17 am

Name: Mandy-Jo

babe, i stopped down at gabys last night for the first time and it was really rough. i didnt drink and my dad wouldnt play pool with me because it reminded him of you. i had your picture in my pocket the whole time so you were with me. i cant say i will be going back anytime soon. it wasnt the same. :( tonight is christmas eve and i have to go to your familys house - this shouldnt be easy either. i miss you so much and i really wish you were here to spend christmas with your family.

please visit me tonight and let me know your there. i love you with all my heart and always will...merry christmas babe!

kaylah says merry christmas dad! i love you.

No. 15

Date: December 8, 2005 - 7:18 am

Name: Robin (Mandy\'s Mom again)

Eric, today is Jesse's birthday. Happy Birthday Jesse!! Tomorrow is Amie's birthday. Happy Birthday Amie!! Everyone is born to make their mark on the world because it is not what you take with you but what you leave behind. Both of these people will have thoughts of you on their day because of what you left behind. LOVE, E. I am thinking that inside of these two, the enormous love they felt will enter their hearts over and over again wishing, just wishing that you could be here to help celebrate along with everyone else. It just makes me so sad. I was wondering when the tears stop? Oh, E. One hug, just one more. Please????

No. 14

Date: December 7, 2005 - 12:55 am

Name: Jesse Miron

My big Brother... With that role, came an enormous sense of security, friendship, respect, and love. From as far back as I can remember up until the second this all happened you had always been the strong brother. While my shyness had me take a step back, you were always the one trying to nudge me forward. Whenever I was nervous about a situation, you were there to push fear aside and show me that if you could do it, so could I. You were always the one I would look to for an answer when I didn't have one. Always the one I would look to for the courage when mine was lacking. No matter how tall I was, you were always the person that I looked up to with so much respect. Just because you were you, my invincible brother with muscles like rocks.

As I see it, while we travel through life, we gradually build up a virtual wall that represents us. Every person that you encounter and affects you in some way, provides some type of contribution to that wall. Even if that person provides a negative contribution at first, eventually it will make your wall stronger. If anyone was to step back and take a good long look at my wall, they'd be able to see the unbelievable amount that you have contributed to it. I have so much to thank you for. You always seemed to be there there for me whenever I needed you.

Now, all I hope for is to see you some day down the road, give you a huge hug(be careful, I might squeeze a little too much), and reminisce about all the great times weíve had together. I hope that youíre at peace now and youíre able to look over all of the people that loved you so much. That will definitely keep you busy for a long time because there were so many that cared for you.

I love you EricÖ and I miss you so much.

No. 13

Date: December 5, 2005 - 2:33 pm

Name: Robin (Mandy\'s Mom)

Eric, it has been a month since you left life. I hold the picture of you, Mandy-Jo and Jesse for minutes at a time staring at your face. Trying to look into the soul of your body. Asking questions and never understanding the reasons. No mattter how much time goes by, I will never understand how things got so bad and no one knew. Life is never easy. Ask anyone, your Mom, your brothers, anyone you know. We perservere. We plod on. Everyday. We learn alot along the way. LIFE stands for: Learning is forever eternal. I am 48, what I have learned along the way has made me the person I am today. I sit and think about you and so many things run through my mind. I look at your daughter and my heart swells with love. You had a long way to go to experience things that would have made you stronger.
Mandy-Jo: I love you and I know you know that. Time, all you need is time and the ability to move forward to create a much more special life for your daughter. I know you will. Again, I love you.

No. 12

Date: December 2, 2005 - 6:08 pm

Name: Amie

Eric, I donít even know where to start or what to say to you. Iím not really sure thereís anything I havenít said to you already, when Iím home alone having a full fledge conversation out loud in the house with you. Leave it to you to make me feel like Iím losing my mind, talking to myself like a complete nutcase. Yes, I do know that you laugh at me, I wouldnít expect anything less. Like Matt said, weíve all gone through some sort of ìwhat ifî phase, or perhaps something we could have done differently. We have all wondered where you were emotionally. What your concerns, questions, fears and doubts were. In all honestly itís a complete waste of time. Unfortunately the dreadful truth isÖ youíre gone. There is absolutely no point in focusing on the pastÖ.it will never bring you back. You will never ever stand full form in front of us again and allow us to look at your beautiful bright blue eyes. It kills me to accept that. We all want you back with us so badly, but as I said the truth is inevitable. I just need you to promise me one thing. I need it to accept this and move forward. Jesse and I were truly freaked out the night you decided to visit, continuously tapping with your poker chip to make your presence known. You definitely annoyed and scared the living crap out of both of us, however; I need you to promise that you will continue to visit. I may be scared or freaked out initially, but I promise this is what I want from you. I feel comfort in knowing you will still be here with us, even though youíre not visible. I need to feel the comfort of your presence at our wedding someday. Knowing that Jesseís ìbest manî will be there in the crowd cheering us on knowing it was going to happen. We both will need to know you will be there as ìUncle Eî looking after our children someday. Promise me you will be there sitting in the bleachers with us when Kaylah graduates from high school and from college, because she will be going even if it takes every last burst of energy from Jesse and I to push her little ass there and make everyone including you proud. She will need you there feeling proud of your little girl that she made it as far as you had hoped she would. And I do expect nothing less then to feel your presence and approval of every guy Kay brings to the family for consent. We all dreaded the day poor K had to bring someone around Dad. I was certain that little girl would die alone just for the fact you would never ever think anyone was good enough for your little angel. Eric, I need you to be there with all of us, jabbing us in the ribs, moving things around the house in anger or dislike if that is how you feel. Although it will be hard to imagine or accept, Kay will find someone worthy of her, and she will get married. It really makes me upset and angry that Kay wonít have that opportunity of the traditional wedding as we all dream of, but if you promise me that you will be there walking beside her in acceptance and support. I promise you that someone will be on her other side. Whether it is Mandyís husband who Kaylah will love as a second father or Jesse who stand in complete honor of your presence. Please Eric, I beg you to follow us, and be here with every event this family goes through even if it means you have to break the ìrulesî in ìRules and Regulations after Deathî handbook. You werenít one to really follow any laws, so please donít start now. Well, now that Iíve written my own book here. Hey, donít laugh at me, you always knew I was a bit long winded! I just want you to know we all miss you terribly, and are trying to maintain life and routine as I know you would have wanted us to. I donít want you to start twirling your finger with your hat down low in embarrassment from all this attention youíre receiving. Rest in peace Eric, and let us know if you win any tournaments up there. Good bye for now, yours truly, Dr. Bovi

No. 11

Date: November 28, 2005 - 5:46 pm

Name: Matt

So Mandy showed me this cuz I never knew where we could write thoughts on the site. So anyways, here are mine:

To Eric: I am sorry that you couldn't find another way out of your situation, and I'm pretty sure that now you realize that this was a permanent solution to only a temporary problem. We all ask ourselves "what if?", I had quite a few what if's, what if you HAD sold your bike, what if we checked your mom's house first, what if I had my birthday party the week before, would I have made you come and then you maybe would have reconciled with Mandy? I still am not quite sure what your biggest problem was, I wish I could have helped...

To Mandy: There is nothing I can say that will make you feel much better, but if I can take away any of that pain I will try. You cannot blame yourself even the slightest bit, nobody can, his mind was set, he still loves you very very much, and you were one of his biggest reasons for holding on, just look forward to the day that you guys will be together again, and until then, be strong for the best thing Eric evey could have given you, Kaylah...

To Kaylah: I know you probably won't read this soon or maybe for a few years, but I just want to tell you that Daddy loves you soo much and he will always be there for you even if you can't see him... I love you Kay

Tina, Jess & Cor - I love all of you very much, you are family to me, I refer to you all as cousins when someone asks or when telling a story, etc. I hope you all can make it through this and I know everyone says this but feel free to talk to me about anything, I love you guys...

Eric's Mom and Dad: Though it is impossible for me to know personally, I know there is nothing harder in life than losing one of your children, I am so sorry about your loss...

When you remember Eric try not to think about the sadness of his death, but instead the happiness his life brought to yours and everyone elses, I'm sure he would rather us celebrate his life than mourn his death...

No. 10

Date: November 28, 2005 - 1:54 pm

Name: Mandy-Jo

today is a really bad day. i think i have been crying since i woke up. i miss you soo much. i keep thinking "when is he going to call me?" or "when is he coming home?". then reality sets in. this isnt how it is supposed to end. we were supposed to get married, want a divorce everyother month (lol), have more kids and buy a house with your poker tournament money. why did this have to happen? i have so many questions but no answers. i think about you non-stop, from the moment i wake up to the moment i fall asleep and even then you are in my dreams. they arent always good so i think you need to work on that, please. i know kaylah misses you too but she doesnt talk about it much. the other day she told me that i am doing better at not being sad so much. she is definately so seven. nancy and al have been helping me out with everything to include sadie. would you even believe she is potty trained (i know its house broken ). well i miss you and i love you with all my heart and always will.

p.s. did you like the concert? cuz i know you were there with us. (the lights flickering kind of let me know).....love you babe