Rest In Peace - Eric Miron - Novermber 04, 2005

No. 57

Date: September 1, 2006 - 8:12 am

Name: Robin (Mandys Mudder)

Eric, Eric, Eric.....Everytime I think of you my breath does this push out of my heart. I suspect you have made us all a lot older and alot more in the dark. I look at your picture and I try to look so deep into those eyes. What? what????? I went to see your little girl practice her cheerleading last night for a few minutes and I can tell you that when I walked out onto the field, my first thought was...gee, I wonder if everybody knows that Kaylah's Dad is dead?? Do they? Do they look at her differently? I wish you could just look at her. I remember a boy who told me that he would never leave his daughter because he knew how bad it was to feel the loss of his father. Eric, time goes by. Hurt goes by. The key to getting older is that you learn something EVERYDAY. If only you would have toughed it out. WE all will. We may drag our feet with the things we learn occasionally, but in the end we will move on because we want to live it. How could you not want to see those sunsets????? After the months that have passed since you left us, the only thing I can say is....What the heck?? As an old hippie... we would have said in my day.....GET RIGHT!!!
In your case, I would say that applies. I figure that in my lifetime, there are going to be a few more losses and ALOT more gains. What didn't you see?

No. 55

Date: August 20, 2006 - 6:51 pm

Name: Rolf

Well, it's been 9plus months. What a difficult time this was with your mom.
I was always hoping that Karen or anyone in your family never has to go through someting like this, because I knew it will devastate and break her. And it did happen. Your mom will never be the same again, so are your siblings, grandparents, friends and father.
As to me, I am still sick every time I think about that early morning. Sorry to know, that you didn't see any other way out.
I know also how it feels when the love of your life is leaving you, and there is nothing you can do to make the relationship work again.
Someday we will all meet again, some sooner than others.
At least now you're in piece and in a better place.
We all miss you.
Rolf

No. 54

Date: August 14, 2006 - 6:18 pm

Name: T

Hey E.... Well me and Mandy just spent a week up in Otis. It was great. It was really nice to get away for a while just her and I and the kids. Kaylah had a blast I think... other than the major shitter she took on her bike. But dont worry me and Mandy cleaned her up and bandaged her good.
I think you would have been proud of the way I took her bandaids off. Just pulled them off (after Kaylah took about an hour to try to pull them off herself). She was amazed that it didnt hurt when I did it real quick.
so any way on Sunday we finished the week with lots off people up there. It was me and Nathan, Mandy, Mom, Michelle, Jesse, Amie, Nancy, Albert, Matt, Kyle, Corey, Amie's dad Bob and step mom Paula, Uncle Brian, Tina and the kids and Memere and Pepere, and Aunt Tammy and Kyle. It was so cool to see her with most off her family together. I think it is amazing the way you and Mandy brought us all to this point. I love you for that.
I want to let you know that even though you and Mandy never got to the chance to get married, she is still so much a part of our family and always will be. You and her made a beautiful contribution to us when you made Kaylah...
We love her and Mandy and they will always be a part of our lives. I consider her a sister, and promise to always help her when she needs me (and Kaylah too).
I am really looking forward to Jesse and Amie to get hitched, Then I will have two sisters!
Anyway I know Jesse is bummed that you are not here to experience this wedding with us but I know you are there in our hearts and souls!
I love you Dog. I will catch you later!
Love T

No. 53

Date: August 2, 2006 - 12:33 am

Name: DAD

I have to get some things off my chest! This website says write whatever you want don't post anything negative show RESPECT and LOVE! All this writing seems like a competition of who hurts more. WHO CARES! We ALL hurt we don't need to compare and we don't need to blame. Karen DADS DON"T COME AND GO JUST YOUR FRIENDS AND HUSBANDS! and I dont care what the studies show.(p.s. I hope your DAD doesn't see this.) Nancy my hat off to you, EXCELLENT letter. When I look at Kaylah i see so much of Eric when he was little. Her face her cute little nose, the way she runs, stands and especially the way she SMILES.Your right she is HIS little one everytime I look at her it reminds me of him and I smile.I will enjoy watching her grow up!I am very glad that because of Eric, Mandy, Jesse and Amy we are ALL FAMILY! I LOVE YOU ALL! DAD

No. 52

Date: August 1, 2006 - 10:40 pm

Name: T

SOOOOO SOORRRYYY E! I forgot to say hi in that last post!!!! What up DOG!!!!!!!

See what you have done little bro. You brought two families together!

I love you an I miss you!!!!

But I am still gonna kick your ass when I see you. Yup knock you right off your little beebachbach legs.

Oh by the way that friggin bird flew away again, so I don't hear her sayin Fatty Girl anymore.HAHA you lose, I win. She is out there with you sayin "beebachnach" HA HA!!!!!!

In your honor we drank a whole lot of tequila rose for my birthday party. A whole lot... It was great!!!! I wish you were still here to see everyone hangin out, Corey is older now and can hang, Matt and Kyle hang with us now. Its really an incredible thing to see everyone together and havin fun, although we are always missing that one part.... you. But I can assure as everyone takes that shot of tequila, even if we don't say it everytime, we are thinkin of you!!! Mandy was even doin double shots, one for you, one for her. (that was pretty crazy, but she did it!) HAHHAAH we all miss you and talk about you often.
Mostly the funny things and the good times. Thats what makes it great, to hang out and remember good things!
I love you.
Peace out Dog!
T

No. 51

Date: August 1, 2006 - 10:28 pm

Name: Tina

Nancy!!! You made me cry!
Thank you for being upfront and to my face! I truely appreciate you being honest.
But I think that I was misunderstood, as often happens with me. I was upset and a week away from my 31st birthday. I have no intention of not being here, I was feeling like, why are any of us here. Then I came to the conclusion that we are all here to make others happy!!
I was feeling like i failed with E. But looking back I now realize that I didn't.
Like I said on my MySpace, I have truely realized how important the people in my life are.
I have found love and support within your family and cherish that. I have became closer with Mandy and found a new friend in Michelle.
I appreciate that you care enough about us to write what you did, I am not offended and am never offended when someone speaks what is on their mind and gives the other person a chance to explain.
I appreciate everything your family does for our family and regard all of you as the same... family.
I am glad that you feel comfortable enough to talk to us and hope that you always will. Talking and working out misconceptions is the key to any relationship... Friends, family, or otherwise. Communication, love and support. This is what I have gained from you and your family, I just hope that I will be able to return the favor if your family is ever in need, just as you have for ours.
You are right hopelessness is UNEXCEPTABLE. This is my favorite part of your letter. But you are also right that at times we are gonna feel sad and angry. This is why I am so grateful to have this website. It really gives me an opportunity to say what I really feel, and it gives others like you or me or anyone, the ability to step in and help or support if they feel like their loved one is getting to deep into their depression.
That is a remarkable thing.
Imagine if all families and friends had this? A place where everyone feels comfortable and can speak their mind? without anger towards one another, or hostility! I imagine this as like a group therapy of some sorts, except without a doctor, just the people who know you the best, reading your thoughts and expressing theirs.
I feel comfortable coming on here letting out everything that is on my mind... knowing others can read it, and now knowing that if I am being irrational or if something that I said scares someone they are gonna come to me and talk to me about it. I even got a call from my Aunt Tammy tonight, yelling at me about what I wrote about, "not knowing why I was here..." This is why I clarified the statement in the begining!

I guess we can thank Eric (and Kyle for making this) for bringing us all together like this, to support one another.
So Nancy, I am not offended I am eternally grateful to have you express your concern. Please continue to do so!!!!
Thank you and I do love you
Tina

No. 50

Date: July 31, 2006 - 9:28 pm

Name: nancy aka neh-neh

I haven't written here for a very long time but I have been reading everything and feeling all of you. I have to say the last 3 entries have prompted me to write again. This is not to Eric,(who I talk to out loud very often, by the way) but to everyone else.
Where to start...well, Tina, ("to your face") and Mandy and Karen...anger is okay, sadness is expected but hopelessness is unacceptable.
Think abut it...if you could do anything differently, would you? Then DO IT!!!!! We cannot change the past but we can be there for the living...Tina, your boys, Karen ,your children and just as important...KAYLAH...the real "Little E"
Giving up, being depressed...is this what we want K-K to think her daddy did to everybody. I Don't think so. She will grow up resenting him for destroying everyone's life. We all need to be there for her. If you are having a bad day..which is obvious there are many...please have your moment but look at the BIG stuff. I cannot feel the depth your pain and I realize it is sooo deep and sometimes unbearable, but please don't give up...look where it gets you and what it does to those who love you. We need to be here for the survivors, we need to stay strong and prove to ourselves and our children that we are strong. Tina, you have FOUR sons...don't let them hate Uncle E for destroying your life, too. Karen, you have THREE children, and although they are grown, still need you to be there for them. If you can't be strong on your own get the help you need...if that doesn't seem to be helping then change your support system.
I am sorry if this message offends any of you...but please read it in the spirit in which it was written...If I didn't give a S#*T about all of you then I would mind my own business...but I do care and it pisses me off to see you all just giving up on each other.
Whether you all read this or not, it needed to be said.
love you all,
nancy

No. 49

Date: July 29, 2006 - 12:17 pm

Name: MOM

Hey Eric and the rest of us. this is my last entry into this website. the loss of Eric has completely changed and devestated our lives. there is no humor in any of this. Eric now we know everything about this time in your life up to the very end. You really didn't accomplish what you set out to do, maybe you would have changed your mind. we will never know. the physical pain you felt at 3:56 am November 4, 2005 was very brief. your psychological pain of 28 years took it's toll on you and the rest of us who tried to help, support and comfort you. and now you are gone with no chance of bringing you back. we are all hurting in our own way. as your mother my pain does differ (as the studies support) and I know. losing you to death before my own is the most painful thing a mother can experience. I hope that none of you ever experience the loss of your child (no matter how old he or she is). A Mother is a Mother forever. Dad's come and go. Eric I think that the second most heartbreaking feeling to losing you is my evaluation of my relationship with your sister and brothers, my grandchildren, parents and siblings and husband. I don't like the way it has been or the way it has become. Your death has forced me to decide who I am and what I want and need for myself. My love and support towards you obviously didn't make a difference, nor does it for the rest of the family. So enjoy your journey, I don't think you were looking for a 4 minute motorcycle ride. I love you and miss you more than these words can possibly express. Bye sweetheart. LOVE YOU. MOM