No. 38

Date: May 4, 2006 - 9:36 am

Name: mandy-jo

it has been exactly 6 months since i last heard your captivating voice.
i remember the fear and despair in your voice that i heard along with the persistence and love.

it has been exactly 6 months and 4 days since i last looked into your beautiful eyes.
i remember the sadness and regret in your eyes that i saw along with the tears and love.

it has been exactly 6 months and 8 days since i last felt your compassionate embrace.
i remember the warmth and strength in your embrace that i felt along with the sincerity and love.

No. 37

Date: May 4, 2006 - 8:26 am

Name: Michelle

Eric, it's been 6 months today that you have been gone, this is not the way that it should be......u should be here with us.......ur family.......ur daughter!!!!!

No. 36

Date: April 26, 2006 - 10:08 pm

Name: MOM

Hey Eric,
I LOVE YOU.
I MISS YOU.
I STILL HOPE THAT YOU WILL BE AT THE FRONT DOOR.
I TALK TO YOU EVERY DAY.
I CRY EVERY DAY.
I UNDERSTAND.
SEE YA SOON MY SON.
LOVE MOM

No. 35

Date: April 14, 2006 - 5:52 pm

Name: Alec

I miss you a lot.

No. 34

Date: April 6, 2006 - 8:02 pm

Name: T

Yeah what she said....

No. 33

Date: March 20, 2006 - 9:57 pm

Name: Mandy-Jo

i am so freakin pissed off right now. i swear to god if you were here right now i would seriously hit you. how the hell could you do this to us??? kaylah, eric? wasnt she enough to just hold on and live for!!!! i look at her and all i can be is sad. she is my life - i could never imagine leaving her. you selfish bastard!!!!!!!

No. 32

Date: March 16, 2006 - 12:15 pm

Name: Michelle

Well, Eric, I guess all I can say right now is y????? If u were only here to see all the people that loved and cared for u unconditionally then u would see that this was not the solution or the way that ANYBODY wanted it to be. We would all much rather have u here in all of our lives then what we are all dealing with now. If you could of taken all that generosity and love that you showed everyone else in your life and found a place within yourself that made u happy....then u would have saw what a really great person you were and would always be....especially in the eyes of your daughter. To her, her daddy could do no wrong...and she loved u unconditionally and still does. She needed you in her life, and there is not one person that could ever have the same love for her or share that special bond than you did, because u are her father and nobody can replace you, ever. Of course she has many people in her life that love her, but she needed you also in her life. I mean come on, who is going to be the one there to scare all those little boys away when she starts to become boy crazy because believe me that little girl is going to be quite a little challenge (especially given the fact that she has the same personality of her mother). I mean come on now she already has a friend that she is giving his last name to herself (lol) (oh boy!!!!). You were a role model for so many people and I really do not think that you realized that. I really do not think that the pain will ever subside for anyone; the pain will never entirely go away. You should be her celebrating every holiday and special day with your family°Kwhere u belonged. Everyone loved you for who you were, not who you thought that you should be to everyone. You were the person that everyone turned to when they needed a favor because they knew that you were the one to count on. See Eric, why could you have not saw things from the eyes of everyone else!!!!

Looking back to the days when I first met you, I remember the Eric that always was having a good time (and always had that look to ya-----like yea im a bad ass°Xand what°K.) lol É∫ I remember all those days of drinking zimas and hanging out at your house playing spades having a great time. The one that was always trying to make the most money in the least amount of time possible with the least amount of effort possible (gotta love ya for that one). That°¶s where we all should be right now because nobody ever told us that we needed to grow up too quickly. I guess those are the times that we need to remember and do everything possible to keep those memories alive°K°K°KRIP Eric°K.Miss ya and love you!!!!!!!!

No. 31

Date: February 22, 2006 - 11:51 pm

Name: Mandy-Jo

hey baby! its been a few days since we got back from the dr. it definately wasnt the same without you. valentines day was really rough. the stupid guy playing music decided to sing a sad song right when the food came. of course i tried my hardest not to let it get to me but it did. then he sang my song, mandy by barry manilow. im assuming that was your doing because its not popular and no one requested it. thank you...it gave me a reason to make kaylah dance with me. it was very emotional but cute. you know it would have been you i made dance with me cuz you love dancing so much. lol

everyone missed you and talked about you often. ethan gave me a "skicky flower" to put on your grave. i have it here but im not sure if i was supposed to take it out of the country so i guess i smuggled it out. lol he also slept with kaylah and me the last night and yelled at me for squishing you (the pink bear that looks just like you honey lol). kaylah was cute too. every night she kissed you and said good night, i love you.

your mom and rolf bought me flowers for valentines day that were beautiful. tina, peter, amie and jesse bought me a necklace and bracelet cuz they knew you would of got me jewelry. i got you a card but i will just keep it for kaylah in later years.

i also wanted to just yell at you a little for the horrible nightmares you gave me the last couple nights we were there. i dont know if you were trying to tell me something or not but that is the way i am going to take it. can you please make the rest better please? at least for a while.

ok well i have to get to bed cuz of school tomorrow. i love you and miss you so much!! please visit me tonight.

143 baby

No. 30

Date: February 21, 2006 - 6:14 pm

Name: T

What up Dog?
Well we all survived the DR with each other. I wish you could've been there with us. The pool table was right next to the card table. You would have loved that.
I was almost ready to rip my hair out with the kids but I didn't. I wish you were there to see Kaylah with the dolphins she was so funny! She hid behind Mandy most of the time.
It was cute.
I miss being able to talk to you about stuff that really pisses me off so I will continue to talk to you before I go to bed in my head.... while I am dressed!! hahah thought you would appreciate that.
Love you ..... Miss you.
T

No. 29

Date: February 20, 2006 - 2:05 pm

Name: mom

Hey honey, we have now returned from the Dom Rep. It wasn't the same without you. I miss you so much I can barely stand it. I still cry everyday for the awful pain I feel from loosing you. I hope that you were with us in some way. Jesse proposed to Amie on the beach during the sunset. We all got flowers for Mandy Jo for Valentine's day on your behalf and because we love and care about her. We try to ease each other's pain. It is different for each of us but very real. We are nearly done renovating the guest room for Mandy and Kaylah if they wish and also for Tina's four boys. Can you believe it's another boy!!!!!!!!!!!Oh PS St. Mary's Hospital has called me twice to try to get in touch with you. I respectfully told them to do their research, that your where abouts is in the hearts of those who love and miss you. Love you sweety

You aren't the sheep you thought you were.